Public Apology
Wednesday, June 22 2011 @ 03:52 PM CDT

I need to make an open apology to everyone here and everyone I de-friended in the last few days. I have been on meds for sometime now, Paxil and Trazdone. In over the last week and a half I have not received my refills from my doc or any word from my pharmacy on my status. Then I decided to have a couple beers during the Cross Town Classic and it really put my withdrawls in full effect. Without my meds....I start having a loss of control with my emotions. I have caused again needless pain and embarrassment to my fiance. I have jealousy issues that are completely out of control when I am not taking my meds. I have publicly humiliated her in front of everyone of her friends and my own. For what I did was inexcusable and down right low. I should of never made these things public. I did and now I need to try and set things right.

To all of my Canadian friends...I am sorry for my behavior..I am still going thru major with drawls but that is no excuse. To Sheila...I am so sorry I continue to put you thru all of this. What I have done to you I know you will never be able to forgive me.

I still love you so much. I have no excuse for my behavior. What I did was wrong and I hope you can forgive me someday. I just can't live without my meds..and I can't live without you. I am so sorry Sheila...so sorry.

To MJ's I am sorry I made these things public here. I just can't think straight at the moment..so I am sorry if I am making no sence. Once I have my meds I will try and clarify a bit more on what an asshole I am.

Re:Public Apology
Wednesday, June 22 2011 @ 04:10 PM CDT

... hey ass hole....
I love you bro. Time to take care of yourself.

Re:Public Apology
Wednesday, June 22 2011 @ 04:17 PM CDT

Hang in there. Chemicals are a bitch, especially the ones that regulate our brain functions. For what it's worth, I consistently read that the best way to promote healthy regulation is steady sleep patterns and vigorous exercise (both of which are free). I don't make a habit of running, but when I need to clear my head a good long walk/jog does wonders.

Re:Public Apology
Wednesday, June 22 2011 @ 04:28 PM CDT

Take it easy on yourself. Your friends and loved ones likely understand and wish only the best for you. We're always hardest on ourselves.

Re:Public Apology
Wednesday, June 22 2011 @ 04:32 PM CDT

No problem bro. Take care of yourself.

Re:Public Apology
Wednesday, June 22 2011 @ 04:38 PM CDT

When you are done kickin' yourself, we will all still be here. Get well to stay well!

Daug

Re:Public Apology
Wednesday, June 22 2011 @ 04:52 PM CDT

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13:4

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Re:Public Apology
Wednesday, June 22 2011 @ 05:45 PM CDT

I understand more than anyone could ever know, just did not know that he was off the meds that have given him the peace that his life was missing for so long. I know of Chris's meds and his issues, therefore I did not respond to the lashing out, engaging would only make matters worse.

There is no shame in being honest and asking for help when we need it, its when we dont that our world can spiral out of control.

Thank you to all the wonderful friends that know the real people that we are and recognize that sometimes we lose our way. Thank you for being there to help light the path back to where we need to be.

Re:Public Apology
Wednesday, June 22 2011 @ 07:36 PM CDT

dude. I do way more embarrassing stuff in REAL LIFE as well as online all the time, with no excuse!! I'm plain an idiot!!

you are fine we love you take a couple deep breaths

in a hundred years who's gonna care? :-)