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This is another song written after September 11, the first I performed, actually. (Following the event, I couldn't write about anything else for months; I lived in the neighborhood and the Twin Towers used to fill my bedroom window.) I think I had to sing this song five times before I could make it through without simply stopping from be overcome with tears. Following the tragedy, "I Will Love" was my personal promise to the future. (Photo by Dan Loh.)

Other songs in my 9/11 series:
Was There Once A Time
Last Call
New Holy Land

(See: Journal from the Streets to read a photographic journal about my 9/11 experiences.)
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I WILL LOVE

Eyes search and
hands fall and
life empties out.

Once strong and
once so tall, now
all is leveled; simply leveled out.

Then, after,
(must be an after)
rubble is cleared away
in boxes and in polished urns
and I stand, wordless, and pray,
with hands rising, to say
that I will love.
I will love.

And that no matter the danger,
no matter what the final cost
or the careful wagers,
and that no matter the risk of loss,
no matter what the hurt, or the fear,
I will love. Yes, I will love.

I will love, ever,
I will love, always.
From this grave moment on
with honor I will love.

What beliefs, what actions can I take now?
Are there things to do to fill in all the spaces?
Are there goals that make sense not to break now?
Is there something left to balance out the day?

I will love, ever,
I will love, always.
From this day, I am honoring this life with love,
I am showering this life with love.

Never forget.
I will never forget.
And I will love.
And I will love.

I will love, ever,
I will love, always.
From this day of days,
I will love, yes, I will love.

I will love, ever,
I will love, always.
From this life of lives,
I will love, yes, I will love, always.
I will love, yes, I will love.
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Uploaded: May 03, 2004 - 11:42:07 AM
Last Updated: Jun 27, 2006 - 11:20:45 AM Last Played: Sep 04, 2017 - 01:44:26 PM
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Hardware:
G4; Emu Proteus 2 (woodwinds); Roland A-90x (controller); DX7 synthharp; MIDI piano, drums, etc. No loops.
Software:
GB; DP 4.
Comments
Suzanne said 4947 days ago (May 3rd, 2004)
uplifting chorus
the melody you begin with is really interesting, like you'r eclimbing out of the space you find yourself in or something, but the chord progression subtly begins to become triumphant and then bursts into a great chorus. i love how it makes me feel. the space between the first and second parts of the song seem long, but then i thought maybe you were going for that (since you seem to know what you are doing in all your songs), so i thought maybe this was you getting drawn back into gound zero. but i love the chorus and ending. thank you for sharing this "personal promies."
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said 4947 days ago (May 3rd, 2004)
Anthematic
Excellent choice of instruments. Those chords... Thanks for the anthem. Thanks for the tears. It sounds as though it were the beginning overture to a Broadway play...
alanfraser said 4947 days ago (May 3rd, 2004)
Major Class
You sound like you stepped right out of Broadway! Your voice has good
power and has that on-stage presence. The instrumentation and dynamics
are quite good as well. Nice job!

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fosod said 4947 days ago (May 3rd, 2004)
912
Nice chord changes toward the end. I gotta say, I'm not
past the 11th.

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XVERION said 4946 days ago (May 3rd, 2004)
Good tune
I never get tired of all the interesting songs you come up with. This is no exception. Living on Staten Island, five minutes from the ferry, it was devestating to see the towers go down. This song has a lot of emotion behind it, jst great!
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TobinMueller said 4708 days ago (December 28th, 2004)
Good tune
Thanks. You viewed it from the other side, had a better view. The photo I
used as song art was from across the river in New Jersey. Luckily the wind
was blowing away from you. But Staten Island became the real graveyard.
Ok, enough thinking about it... thanks for liking the song.
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macapa said 4946 days ago (May 4th, 2004)
Very touching
A nice progression, thoughful lyrics, very sober. Also must
have been difficult to write.
TobinMueller said 4708 days ago (December 28th, 2004)
Very touching
I made myself think of the words, a way of making my brain work again.
Once they began, once the first stanza starting forming, it all came quickly,
like relief that I could think again. The writing was easier than the singing.
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morrie said 4946 days ago (May 4th, 2004)
Why I come here
Tobin,
Hearing songs like yours are the reasons I joined MacJams
in the first place, and why I keep coming back to hear
more. Thanks for sharing. I too have written songs I
couldn't sing without crying the first dozen times I tried. I
really like being able to read the lyrics now. I gotta warn
you though...any more songs like those you're shared with
us and you'll ruin forever that image of New Yorkers as
rough, tough, city folk. : )
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TobinMueller said 4708 days ago (December 28th, 2004)
Why I come here
Morrie, I miss you on these MJ pages. I loved your soft heart. Yes, songs out
of the mainstream spoken from the heart, and experiments in musical
structure and sound is why I come to MacJams too. Thanks for you
comments and heartfelt caring.
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BlackLily said 4885 days ago (July 4th, 2004)
epic
well done.. this must have been a huge undertaking
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EdensEve said 4680 days ago (January 25th, 2005)
The certainty of your voice...
The hollowness of the hollow places and the glory of the moving places in this song are so big. Like standing between the towers, between the totems of souls lost, or maybe not lost but torn and separate. The certainty of your chorus, they way you sing it, is so moving. Everyone on the world should listen to this and change, be changed. Like a Gospel, an incarnation of spirit.
TobinMueller said 4679 days ago (January 26th, 2005)
The certainty of your voice...
Change. Yes. Thank you.
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thetiler said 4647 days ago (February 27th, 2005)
Another great tune / great words
Thanks for the great words. Music a winner


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debmac said 2990 days ago (September 11th, 2009)
Sept 11 memories...
came alive again as I listened to your song Tobin.... this is the song I couldn't write....but this is what I felt here in Canada as I watched that morning along with the rest of the world....and days after as the camera would zoom in and show all the people and volunteers...you have captured those days so well, those moments....and the music....held all that feeling and it flowed thru your words..can't quite describe it....an "After" Anthem I would call it....perfect...just perfect...
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TobinMueller said 2989 days ago (September 12th, 2009)
Thank you
Your words ion reply were also perfect. Just the sort of balance every artist wants to hear. Thank you for listening and letting it inside.
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jdholliday said 2797 days ago (March 23rd, 2010)
Inspiring!
Great proclamation, very heartfelt sincerity, healing! Thank you.
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Name: Tobin Mueller
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I am a professional musician, composer, playwright and director. I've led a charmed life. I'm married to fellow MJer Suzanne and MJer Twonicus is my son, who currently sings and writes for rock bands in the NYC, D.C. and Cleveland areas. My second s... [see more]

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