'Questions(w/Epileptic Gibbon)'

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A Spoken Word Piece about Illegal, Politically Related and War Related Hostages and Detaines
and a Day In Their Life.

A Collaboration by Epileptic Gibbon and dwwave

All Lyrics and Spoken Word by Ian Fairholm of
Cheltenham, England

Music/Sound by dwwave

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Lyrics

What am I doing here?
You haven't spoken to me in weeks.
You curse me.
Spit on me.
Ridicule me.
But don't speak to me.
Maybe you wouldn't know how.
I don't think you're a human being.
What am I doing here?

What are you doing to me?
Do I offend you?
Did I wound you?
How could I?
I don't even know you.
You certainly don't know me.
Or own me.
Or zone me.
Or dethrone me.
What are you doing to me?

Why are you hurting me?
Do you even know who you are?
Do you care enough to think that you might be?
Is hurt a word in your dictionary?
Or just some abstract notion that you've heard others talk about?
I don't think you know pain.
Or if you ever did, it was long ago.
In another life. But not mine.
Why are you hurting me?

Why are you leaving me?
Your presence has been the most constant in my current life.
I hate you.
But without you to hate, I don't know what I am.
You're trying to take even that from me.
And there's nothing else left to take.
Dignity walked out months ago.
Pride left along with it.
Now all I have left is my hate, and the object of that hate.
Why are you leaving me?

Why are you opening the door?
Does that make everything allright?
Is sorry really sufficient?
Or just another word you use without meaning it,
Or understand it.
You haven't changed.
Or been rearranged.
But you took the pieces of my life, broke them up.
And now you're returning them to me like they're some kind of gift.
Why are you opening the door?

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Hits: 2042
Comments: 36
Fans: 2
Plays: 383
Downloads: 121
Votes: 9
Uploaded: Jan 16, 2006 - 03:55:25 PM
Last Updated: Mar 05, 2006 - 07:51:50 PM Last Played: May 13, 2013 - 07:06:25 PM

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Song Actions

Hardware:

Vocals=Behringer Condensor Microphone

Music=M-Audio Radium 49 Midi Keyboard using GB2 Software Instrument Acoustic/Electric Piano

Apple G5
Apple eMac

Software:

GB2
&
Sound Effects from Royalty Free Sample DVD
that came enclosed with a edition of Computer
Music (U.K.)

Comments

bronco

bronco said 2683 days ago (January 16th, 2006)

Excellent
Hey, you guys are getting quite good at this type of piece. Epi - your
words are very artistic but profound at the same time. What was fun
was to listen first and try to comprehend where you were coming from
with these words and then see if you had written anything in the
description. I have to tell you that I came up with several different
scenarios which shows once again how art speaks to each of us
differently. At first I thought you were writing about a street person.
One of those inivisible fellows with the cardboard sign. Then I thought
it might be the breakup of a relationship . . then, extreme perhaps, but
maybe a clinically paranoid person. When I read where you were aiming
it, it of course made perfect sense from that angle also.

David, sweet little piano. Accented the words beautifully. I could
imagine this was a poetry read at a coffehouse and there was a live
piano acompaniment. I should have caught the war reference from the
gunfire at first with the sirens but the sad fact is that could be one of
our major cities with the gangs trying to kill each other. Not to say it
wasn't well done. Again, I consider it to be a bonus that this piece
could be taken so many different ways.

Good work, compassion is not dead and there is still hope!

Check out my latest song called Which Way Is Up?

Epileptic Gibbon

Epileptic Gibbon said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)

Excellent
I did write a long and rambling reply to your thoughtful comments,
Bronco, but my browser crashed and I lost everything. Basically, I wanted
to say thanks for such a great comment and also say that your multi-
levelled interpretation of the lyrics is a testament to the way that the
meaning of art really is in the eye of the beholder… or behearer in this
case, I guess. Obviously you really listened and thought about this, and
what more can you ask of someone who comes to your music than that.
David and I really appreciate it.

---
"You never say please. You never say thank you."
"Please don't be an idiot. Thank you."
-- Bayliss and Pembleton

Check out my latest song called Fiddler Off the Roof w/Komrade K & Caroline

dwwave

dwwave said 2683 days ago (January 16th, 2006)

Bronco, Thank You!
Bronco,

Good to hear from you and thank you for taking the time to listen
and to write such a deep analysis of what the piece meant to you.

Epi as always writes very well put together lyrics and its neat that
you got several visuals and reads from the lyrics and reading.

Thanks for the nice comment on the piano playing and for the alternate
interpretation of the gunfire and sirens. It is sad (and scary) that the streets
have become battlegrounds.

Thanks again for listening and posting, much appreciated!
dwwave

Check out my latest song called One Half Person

	said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)
	Interesting juxtaposition of material A serious and sobering soliloquy set against a light, randomized tinkling of the ivories. Excellent counterpoint. Very theatrical and political. I listened and felt the sting of the questioning. Good delivery. Nice collab.

dwwave

dwwave said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)

Interesting juxtaposition of material
First, Thanks for listening and your post, much appreciated.
Epileptic Gibbon (Ian) did a very precise and emotional delivery.
I find your interpretation very interesting and thought provoking.
Thanks for the positive on the (midi) piano
This is our 4th collaboration and each piece has been different.
We are also doing this across the Atlantic via e-mail
which is unusual but is also a excellent learning experience.
Hopefully you will hear more of us in the future.

Thanks again!
dwwave

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dwwave

Check out my latest song called One Half Person

loyd vader	loyd vader said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)
	Interesting juxtaposition of material and the condensor mic sounds fantastic.......i really like this piece...... --- \m/\m/ Check out my latest song called im not lazy, im just tired

dwwave

dwwave said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)

Interesting juxtaposition of material
I asked Epileptic Gibbson just prior to posting what microphone he used and it
sure does sound very well, I like to post as much as possible about equipment used
as by chance if someone is looking to add to the gear they can hear how
a guitar may sound or a microphone may peform etc.

Epi has a very good vocal delivery style, Glad you enjoyed the piece
Thank you for listening and posting!

dwwave

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dwwave

Check out my latest song called One Half Person

loyd vader	loyd vader said 2676 days ago (January 22nd, 2006)
	Interesting juxtaposition of material yes i see many good wraps about condenser mics here at mj's. i dont post my equipment as it can really suck but once i do get new gear and test it and can comment on its performance, i too will be in on your game............and its a lovely game people.....share the knowledge. --- \m/\m/ Check out my latest song called im not lazy, im just tired

Epileptic Gibbon	Epileptic Gibbon said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)
	Interesting juxtaposition of material Thanks, Loyd Vader. That's a great name, BTW. --- "You never say please. You never say thank you." "Please don't be an idiot. Thank you." -- Bayliss and Pembleton Check out my latest song called Fiddler Off the Roof w/Komrade K & Caroline

Rebsie	Rebsie said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)
	Nice work There is a theatrical style to this piece ... and it's good the way the piano track gets darker and more spiky and discordant as it goes along. You two are becoming quite a powerful duo! Check out my latest song called Amongst The Colours (w/ Luna Trick)

dwwave

dwwave said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)

Nice work
Rebsie,
Thanks for listening and posting, Much appreciated!
I agree there is a theatrical aspect to Questions that (to me) was not as evident
in the beginning stages compared to the posted piece.
Mostly from Ian's passionate vocal delivery and lyrics!
Thanks also for the + on the piano, I am glad it (Questions) turned out the way it did, I must admit I have not played keyboards in a long time but when I do
it does come out rather rambling and takes a course of its own
and discourse (for sure)
Thanks again
I look foward to working again with Ian
dwwave
I must visit yours and Williams website again!

---
dwwave

Check out my latest song called One Half Person

selters

selters said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)

Great Lyrics!
I wish that i didnt read the description before listening to this. Everything made perfect sense. On the other hand if I hadnt read i might just considered it Gibberish! They are indeed very profound. I guess i never would have figured them without reading the description. Enjoyed this a lot, Lyrics like this is always a killer!

Check out my latest song called So Far (Out Of Reach)

dwwave

dwwave said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)

Great Lyrics!
Selters,
Thank You for listening, reading and posting, much appreciated!
I must say I wonder if I should have included a description of the piece,
as the posts so far have been quite interesting and varied in what people take away from the piece. Did I take away from the experience or assist with it?
Ian's lyrics are very deep and describe very poetically and thought provoking of what is a mysterious and dark subject.

Many Thanks!
dwwave

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dwwave

Check out my latest song called One Half Person

Epileptic Gibbon

Epileptic Gibbon said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)

Really pleased how this turned out
Thanks to Bronco and Richard for commenting on this, and thanks
in particular to David for working his magic on this track. I know
that David was working on musical ideas for our next
collaboration when lyrical inspiration struck me, out of the blue.
David dropped what he was working on and instead came up with
some great sounds which act as the perfect counterpart for the
dark visions I was having. I really appreciate all the effort you went
to on this, David, particularly as I know you've not had the best
past few days. I hope the success this track is having will go some
way to making you feel better.

Check out my latest song called Fiddler Off the Roof w/Komrade K & Caroline

Epileptic Gibbon

Epileptic Gibbon said 2682 days ago (January 17th, 2006)

Really pleased how this turned out
Oops, I just got finished writing a comment and thanking Richard and
Bronco for theirs and when I come back there's been a load more!
Outstanding! Many thanks to Selters, Loyd Vader, and, of course, to
Rebsie. Bless you all.

---
"You never say please. You never say thank you."
"Please don't be an idiot. Thank you."
-- Bayliss and Pembleton

Check out my latest song called Fiddler Off the Roof w/Komrade K & Caroline

caroline	caroline said 2681 days ago (January 18th, 2006)
	more nice work guys... fluffy? no! pink? no!!! worth a listen?? yes!!! well done? yes!! gratitude for sharing?? yes!! three kisses? yes!! xxx Check out my latest song called i'm a reunion maid MJRF 2010

dwwave	dwwave said 2681 days ago (January 18th, 2006)
	more nice work guys... Caroline, Thanks for listening and posting! In our collaborations as close to pink and fluff has been "A Christmas Credit Card" Not sure if there will be one like that again but you never know! Thanks Again! dwwave --- dwwave Check out my latest song called One Half Person

john	john said 2681 days ago (January 18th, 2006)
	I Liked It I like the way the piano follows the mood of the though-provoking lyrics. Good work guys on another successful trans-atlantic collaboration. Check out my latest song called Steamroller

dwwave	dwwave said 2681 days ago (January 18th, 2006)
	I Liked It John, Thank You for listening and Posting! Glad you enjoyed the piece and many thanks for the + comments on Epileptic Gibbon's deep and provocative lyrics and presentation. Thanks also for the positive on the piano,I am finally using the midi keyboard in conjnction with GB's Software Instruments. Thanks Again! dwwave --- dwwave Check out my latest song called One Half Person

dreadmon

dreadmon said 2681 days ago (January 18th, 2006)

This is great
considering the subject matter - it hits the temple unusually, this is intensity conveyed through an almost level-headed consideration, until the part about hate, where the emotions start to really seep through. I would've liked to have heard more emotion, but then - I like the nature of it as-is, such as an in-side voice might say when separated from its pain, having become numb and unfeeling. The part that really got me was the "why are you leaving me?" - and the tone in your voice there, so alone, so afraid. The piano is really great, the rhythms and sparseness of it form the walls of the chamber and are poignant at the same time that they are imposing. I love stuff that makes me think - and this really does the trick.

Check out my latest song called Don't You

dwwave

dwwave said 2681 days ago (January 18th, 2006)

This is great
Dreadmon,
Many Thanks for your listening and very detailed and analytic post!
Epi's lyrics and delivery do give much to think about and also create
a great visual which to me is not something that happens easily.
You have given me much to ponder with your post.
Thank you for your kind words on the piano, having a piece that I played
and created being called great is a first for me, It was a first take after warming up
while listening to Epileptic Gibbon's vocal delivery, I hit record and what is there
is what I played that night, I had some time to ponder the sound as Ian had sent
me the lyric's and then the vocals that are in this track so I think the piano track
that came out was in my subconcious (possibly)

I don't want to write too much about myself as being a collaboration it takes both of us to be in synch and understanding of each other. The lyrics and vocal
delivery are a very strong part of this piece and Ian deserves the accolades
you wrote in your post.
Thanks again for listening and such a deep and thought provoking post.

---
dwwave

Check out my latest song called One Half Person

mandolinquent	mandolinquent said 2675 days ago (January 24th, 2006)
	Great work... I love the Harold Budd-style piano. Really really good - as backdrop and as music in its own right. And it's a really strong piece of work all round. I didn't read the description at first, and I think the work is more powerful for not being immediately obvious, because when the penny finally drops it really does fall... Check out my latest song called Had We But World Enough

dwwave

dwwave said 2673 days ago (January 26th, 2006)

Great work...
William,
First, congrats on the CD with Rebsie, aka (Revolving Doris) Super!
Thank You Kindly for the + comments on the piano work and the comparison to
the fabulous artist Harold Budd, He and Brian Eno are two people who I admire
and just love the stuff they put out. Coming from you (whose opinion I take very
highly and seriously) is very gratifying and brings joy. I miss my piano I had
when I was in my early 20's , a old 1920's upright made in Milwaukee, Wisconsin
I got a book out of a local library and painted the keys by note with model paint and I played by color(thats the extent of my piano training) I like playing on all the black sharp keys too at times.

Epileptic Gibbon did a great job with his lyrics and vocal delivery as well as input
on the mix of the song. Collaborating via internet across the Atlantic is possible
who would of thought some time ago (when I listened to Music for Airports on
Vinyl LP.)

Thanks again for your post and inspiring comments!
dwwave

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dwwave

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dwwave	dwwave said 2672 days ago (January 27th, 2006)
	Great work... One addition, The Plateaux of Mirror is one of all time favorites as well ,with Harold Budd and Brian Eno. That Whole Ambient Series is out of this world. Thanks again David --- dwwave Check out my latest song called One Half Person

Epileptic Gibbon

Epileptic Gibbon said 2672 days ago (January 27th, 2006)

Great work...
Thanks again for commenting, William. We both really appreciate your
talents and your contributions to our song pages. And as for the Harold
Budd reference, I knew David would be pleased by it. He's Harold Budd
and I'm Vivian Stanshall… I love it! :-)

---
"You never say please. You never say thank you."
"Please don't be an idiot. Thank you."
-- Bayliss and Pembleton

Check out my latest song called Fiddler Off the Roof w/Komrade K & Caroline

dwwave	dwwave said 2672 days ago (January 27th, 2006)
	? for Epi Ian, You will have to tell me who is Vivian Stanshall I too am glad William commented Take Care dwwave --- dwwave Check out my latest song called One Half Person

mandolinquent

mandolinquent said 2667 days ago (February 1st, 2006)

? for Epi
Harold Budd and Viv Stanshall. Both big drinkers, for better or worse. I once
met Budd in LA for brunch. He ordered wine. And then another bottle. You
should have seen the waitress blanch. At 11 am. They don't do that in LA
much.

Harold Budd is a minimalist. At the time I met him he said he owned about
eight books. He'd got rid of the rest. Viv Stanshall was quite the opposite.
One of the reasons he died in a fire was that his flat in Muswell Hill was so full
of debris. But if you ever want to understand the English, dwwave... "My Pink
Half Of The Drainpipe".

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dwwave

dwwave said 2667 days ago (February 1st, 2006)

mandolinquent, Thanks for the clarification
mandolinquent,
Cool that you met Harold Budd, what did you talk about (Us Americans are a nosy
bunch, hence all the gossip magazines (I never read one honest) I am only familiar with H.Budd as a musician /producer, hope he has cut down (a bit) on the ETOH
intake, not good for the liver (or rest of you in that amount) maybe self medicating? I will definately Google Viv Stanshell as well as try to locate
'My Pink Side of the Drainpipe" (very original and thought provoking title)
Not sure if its just me but some things just throw me clueless about British
language even though its so close to Us English (what ever that is)
I have heard of the Blair Project and if my mind is correct at the moment they
offered some GB compatible loops for a free download. I recall a set of loops
of a women's voice. I basically download very (royalty free loop) when I come across them. I am trying to figure out how big the combo of GB1 and GB2 is
and then how many GB of loops I have. My hardrive is 80GB and I have 17.3 GB free space, the deep thinkers at Apple say to keep 20% free space so I am running close.
Interesting that Harold Budd's lifestyle (owning 8 books, minimalist) is reflected
so closely in his music but then again makes perfect sense. Sad that debris
may have been the reason of the fatality in V. Stanshall's demise. I sense some
interesting reading coming. Thanks again for posting and clarifying /leading
me on a journey. Best of Luck on the EP there! Take Care
dwwave

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dwwave

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Epileptic Gibbon

Epileptic Gibbon said 2666 days ago (February 2nd, 2006)

? for Epi
Vivian Stanshall was a fantastic English comedian, singer, songwriter,
musician and all-round genius. He was the most important member of
the infamous Bonzo Dog Doo-Dah Band, a very eccentric English band
from the 1960s (mostly). Calling them a comedy act just doesn't do them
justice. Stanshall did some great solo stuff too. A legend but, as Mando
says, an alchoholic who died in tragic not to mention ridiculous
circumstances. Mando compared my vocal style on the 'A Christmas
Credit Card' to Stanshall's, which is a huge compliment.

---
"You never say please. You never say thank you."
"Please don't be an idiot. Thank you."
-- Bayliss and Pembleton

Check out my latest song called Fiddler Off the Roof w/Komrade K & Caroline

Rebsie

Rebsie said 2665 days ago (February 3rd, 2006)

? for Epi
Aaaaah, Viv Stanshall ... the ginger geezer ... I love him dearly. Born in a run-
down suburb of east London but spoke with the most gorgeous posh English
voice. 'My Pink Half of the Drainpipe' is just the tip of the comic-genius
iceberg.

It was inevitable that the booze and smoking would eventually kill him, and
they did. He fell asleep with a lighted cigarette in his mouth while drunk, and
set fire to his beard. Bless.

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dwwave	dwwave said 2663 days ago (February 5th, 2006)
	Thanks Rebsie and Ian Thanks for steering me some more(I thought Vivian was a gal)I think I must do some reading on this multi-faceted person. Can always use some comedy. Its strange how many comics die tragic deaths.. --- dwwave Check out my latest song called One Half Person

	said 2664 days ago (February 4th, 2006)
	Nice work I like it you have done a great work on this tune. You have given me a happy departure from this life. I am overwhelmed with joy. Thanks for sharing Keep up the good work Respectfully ---------- Skean My Last Tune Being a Friend (Collab with The NightBird)

dwwave	dwwave said 2663 days ago (February 5th, 2006)
	Thank you Skean! Skean, Thank you for you kind remarks I am glad our piece brought you joy, Peace! dwwave --- dwwave Check out my latest song called One Half Person

dwwave

dwwave said 2643 days ago (February 25th, 2006)

Final Work of Epileptic Gibbon and dwwave
Hi,

Thanks to everyone who has listened, posted , voted , downloaded and supported

our efforts over 4 songs that came about from a response I (dwwave) made

to a forum posting by Epileptic Gibbon.

I (dwwave) decided that further work was not possible and I am currently solo

with some possible collaborations in the future, for now I am practicing and

writing.

Stop The War

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dwwave

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Epileptic Gibbon

Epileptic Gibbon said 2598 days ago (April 11th, 2006)

Final Work of Epileptic Gibbon and dwwave
Well, it was good while it lasted. Thanks to everyone who supported the work we did together

I continue to dabble on this site and have a couple of things in the pipeline.

Best wishes to all,
Eppy

---
"You never say please. You never say thank you."
"Please don't be an idiot. Thank you."
-- Bayliss and Pembleton

Check out my latest song called Fiddler Off the Roof w/Komrade K & Caroline

dwwave

dwwave said 2488 days ago (July 30th, 2006)

Epileptic Gibbon and dwwave
Hopefully at some point in time Epileptic Gibbon (Ian) and dwwave (David) may
once again work together, it was by far the best collaborative work I have ever been involved in and I hope it can reconvene in the future. I thouraghly enjoyed working with Ian and I think our combined efforts led to some very interesting work.

Fingers Crossed+

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dwwave

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