I'm Not Here

urbnite

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a sad little song.

special guest appearance by my neighbors ill-timed footsteps at the end.

p.s. please don't mind the occasional vocal flub. i wasn't up for as much rehearsal as i usually do before i record. :\

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Lyrics

oh my dear
you know i'm not here

stop pretending
it's not ending

i'm somewhere near to gone
i'm somewhere near to gone

you can't see me
i'm lost in your reality

hiding within
a sleepwalking grin

i'm somewhere near to gone
i'm somewhere near to gone
have no fear, i'm gone

i'm not here
i'm not here

Song Stats

Hits: 1960
Comments: 56
Fans: 7
Plays: 324
Downloads: 70
Votes: 18
Uploaded: Mar 20, 2006 - 07:55:05 PM
Last Updated: Mar 23, 2006 - 01:13:23 AM Last Played: Nov 23, 2009 - 03:28:26 PM

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Keywords:

seagull (5), somewhere (6), near (3), gone (26), darren (11), urbnite (11), hiding (4), sleepwalking (1), grin (1), sad (148), harmonic (4), neighbor (2)

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Comments

ElPeruano	ElPeruano said 1346 days ago (March 20th, 2006)
	great guitar i love the guitar accompaniment. "Im somewhere near to gone"- this part especially caught my attention, both vocally and lyrically. You have quite a range! Impressive. Very mellow/melancholy. . most definately suits my tastes. Great job! Check out my latest song called Requiem (w/ TNTrio)

urbnite	urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	great guitar thanks ElPeruano... thats' my favorite line of the song, too! glad i'm not the only one who likes such melancholy music every now and then. Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

BobRoberts	BobRoberts said 1346 days ago (March 20th, 2006)
	Great song The last few I've heard from you have been great, and this is no exception. Thanks for sharing. Check out my latest song called The One and Only

urbnite	urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	Great song Hey Bob! Thanks a lot - Seeing how good your stuff is lately that means a lot. <a href="One Of These Days">One of these days...</a> Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

	said 1346 days ago (March 20th, 2006)
	Take one I like the intimacy and informality of this. Artist in the room! Listen up. Something to exude. You sing and play well, my friend. More of this!

urbnite	urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	Take one Hey Richard... Thanks for your kind words... I'll try and keep 'em coming! Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

charliechen	charliechen said 1346 days ago (March 20th, 2006)
	Sad little song indeed Oh, the resignation in your voice. It's like your are moaning in song. The "lost" in "I'm lost in your reality", the way you let it float, I could hear the ectasy in that agony. Quite heartbreaking. Loved it. Check out my latest song called Sparkles in a Lullaby

urbnite	urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	Sad little song indeed Thanks Charlie. Glad to break your heart! Hope it's not permanent... :) Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

	quarkhead said 1346 days ago (March 20th, 2006)
	so sad! Jeez, this song is sad! Really nice work. I like the plaintive quality of your voice, and the guitar playing is top notch. "I'm somewhere near to gone" is a nice line, and the melody used with it is beautiful. Check out my latest song called Freedom Zen (World Mix)

urbnite	urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	so sad! Tis pretty sad... good to get it out! Thanks for the nice words, quark. Congrats again on the album! Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

loyd vader

loyd vader said 1346 days ago (March 20th, 2006)

suits this rainy day
here in brisvegas we are suffering a torrential downfall as part of the meteorlogical aftermath of cyclone larry. and this track is one of those atmospheric numbers that add to an already laid back vibe........i like the melody and the way its sung.......
although i have to admit that the whole thing is a blatant rip off of the theme from the golden girls............LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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urbnite	urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	suits this rainy day glad i could compliment your atmosphere, vader! hope all's well down under... and don't tell bea arthur! Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

daydream nation	daydream nation said 1346 days ago (March 20th, 2006)
	urbnite's moving castle Reminds me of the late and great Jeff Buckley. I can imagine a string orchestra somewhere in there. Another reference is Nick Drake. Cheered up my morning (true). Check out my latest song called bitter rockets

urbnite	urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	urbnite's moving castle not sure i get the moving castle reference... but i'd like to! thanks - for the lovely comparisons! glad i could cheer you up... :) Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

stevel	stevel said 1346 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	Kind of Blue Lovely track..I like the sparse live performance feel...you let your voice go on this one nicely...using it almost like a jazz instrument improvising around the melody. 'Hiding within a sleepwalking grin' is a really cool lyric! Nice Steve Check out my latest song called Electricity

urbnite

urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)

Kind of Blue
stevel... thank you so much.

i do listen to a lot of jazz, actually. i was thinking the day i posted that, how i
realized jazz doesn't really influence my music. maybe it does.

a lot of times when i'm playing with melodies later in song, i go back and
make sure i have a solid way to do it the first time... i think of duke ellington
saying in the recordings of the newport jazz festival something like, "jimmy
garrison states the theme," at the beginning of festival junction. it's the
jumping off point for the rest of the song. just something that stuck with me.

now i'm rambling.

when i really just mean to say thank you.

Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

Einarus	Einarus said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	Your voice I keep coming back to your voice. You have such a delightfully unique voice that it's always a pleasure to listen to your songs. And you can really use it, too! And when teamed up with your nice guitarplaying - well, you get songs like these! Very nice work! Check out my latest song called Running Scared (w/ Ziti)

urbnite	urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	Your voice thanks ein! glad to suck you in! Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

	said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	Hell Yeah! You sound amazing!!!

urbnite	urbnite said 1345 days ago (March 21st, 2006)
	Hell Yeah! i can deal with amazing. ;) thanks! how's canada? Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

jiguma

jiguma said 1345 days ago (March 22nd, 2006)

better and better
Darren,
You're developing a really interesting style - love the guitar sound, and
your voice is very unique (people say that about mine, and I take it -
and mean it - as a compliment). Excellent (but limited) lyrics - really
interseting ending. Getting better and better each song Darren - keep
em coming!
Neil

Check out my latest song called Lost In Translation (w Mike Watkins)

urbnite	urbnite said 1344 days ago (March 22nd, 2006)
	better and better thanks neil! unique is good! thanks for the comments... better and better is a good thing. hopefully it'll continue! Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

elfdaughter	elfdaughter said 1344 days ago (March 22nd, 2006)
	Love the guest appearance ;) Very mellow - nice one, urb! Check out my latest song called Carol of the Bells 2009

urbnite	urbnite said 1344 days ago (March 22nd, 2006)
	Love the guest appearance ;) thanks elf! Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

Joanna	Joanna said 1344 days ago (March 22nd, 2006)
	It's got it all Plaintive lyrics, melancholy melody, emotional vocals, and strumming your pain. This song is very striking, made especially so by the vocals. You have a great voice and terrific range and you're not afraid to show your emotion as you sing. Fantastic! Check out my latest song called Nellie G.

urbnite	urbnite said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	It's got it all strumming my pain - ha, never thought about it like that. maybe i should do that song next! if only. thanks for your kind words, joanna! and i'm glad your cable came back! -d Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

atonalis	atonalis said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	presentation...... the extended notes on each word is great........ i love the minimalism of the lyrics...... it leaves a cold, vast interp for the listener....... this gave chills. you have a really nice voice........... Check out my latest song called lit with a wet match.

urbnite	urbnite said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	presentation...... thanks atonalis... yeah, i just couldn't stop singing... Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

Macaudion

Macaudion said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)

Incredible
I don't know what's taken me so long to get here - I even went as for
as visiting your site (at myspace???) before, and I can't even remember
how I was led there... Great photos btw

I LOVE your singing on this one - A powerfully fragile delivery - I felt
like you were right here pouring your the dark parts of your soul out...
You left a beautiful puddle - Incredible - Cyd

Check out my latest song called 123 iGetU

urbnite	urbnite said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	Incredible oh thanks cyd! is this the first one you heard? might not want to venture too far back... there's some bad recording going on there! a beautiful puddle... i might have to steal that! thanks again! Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

haribo	haribo said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	oh wow.. this is so organic! your vocal is friendly yet so so absorbing!! i like the vibraato!! Check out my latest song called Fragment

haribo	haribo said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	oh wow.. this is so organic! your vocal is friendly yet so so absorbing!! i like the vibraato!! Check out my latest song called Fragment

urbnite	urbnite said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	oh wow.. thanks haribo! wo sind die gummibaerchen? ich habe hunger! Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

selters	selters said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	good good! This is a very good tune Darren. Maybe the one of yours that are imidately catchy? As well as it still has the characteristics of a Good old Darren Locke tune. Lovely! Check out my latest song called So Far (Out Of Reach)

urbnite	urbnite said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	good good! selters - there you are! thanks! yeah, kinda catchy, huh? in a depressing sort of way. i thought you'd like that combo! glad you stopped by. thanks for the advance ears, as well! - d Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

Leon

Leon said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)

cool..but more words in the lyric sheet i hope
Cool guitar playing, Darren... The song is kinda folksy and has a plaintive
tone..like a sad longing song. I like the melody, although it gets a little
repetitive. The lyrics are simple, but if felt short and incomplete. It
would be good to lenthen the lyrics so it wont be too repetitive and so
there is deeper connection to the music... Still, it's a very artistic song.

Thanks for sharing, Darren.

Check out my latest song called The Nightingale (music and lyrics by Oceans)

urbnite

urbnite said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)

cool..but more words in the lyric sheet i hope
hi leon! thanks for the kinds words!

also, i want to thank you for your honestly and actually constructive criticism!

yeah, the lyrics are simple. i was actually trying to push myself to
communicate what the song was about in a few words as possible. sort of an
exercise in simplicity for me.

and i do agree that it's not complete as a story (usually i like to tell a whole
story). but this story is not done yet, so there's no way to finish it. maybe
the end will be in another song... but for me this song said everything it
needed to.

and now i'm rambling. don't mean to reject your critique, either!

thanks again!

- d

Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

caroline	caroline said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	for goodness sake!! what am i supposed to add to all of that?? you could hold notes for gold medals darren!! your voice is lovely and the guitar sounds great and almost 'sitar-y' in places. and the lyrics work for me too apart from that.... i didn't think much of it at all!!! lol xoxoxoxoxo Check out my latest song called clink that link mjrf

urbnite	urbnite said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	for goodness sake!! oooh... now i want a sitar! that would be fun. yeah- i've got a drone thing going on in parts - glad you noticed! i love the sound. like bagpipes! maybe next time you don't get to hear first! actually, i know that - we already decided! thanks lovely. xoxoxo Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

happygemini3	happygemini3 said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	real nice great acoustictone and the barren sound really lends itself well to the song....sad and inspired but good from start to finish....I like the open sound to the voice as well....and thats a very steady falsetto....big kudos!!!! Check out my latest song called spaceman vs. astronaut

urbnite	urbnite said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	real nice thanks ian! i'm glad you enjoyed it! - d Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

	said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	Wow!! Lots of emotion in this. Excellent job playing and singing. I really like the lyrics- simple, yet very powerful.

urbnite	urbnite said 1343 days ago (March 23rd, 2006)
	Wow!! thanks mikey! yeah - it was a bit of an exercise in simplicity for me! Check out my latest song called Everything's Perfect

rtcooper

rtcooper said 1342 days ago (March 24th, 2006)

Uniquely Poetic
The Vocal (Fine Instrument, there) is as haunting as the Longing that
haunts the narrator. Extraordinary presentation.

The single mic does a good job and provides precise detail, but seems
to bias toward the highs and transients of the guitar. If I could change
just one thing, I would mic the guitar separately for a separate EQ from
the Vocal.

A Really Fine piece, in my opinion. Fresh vision and execution.

Compliments and regards,
Cooper

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alley-oop

alley-oop said 1340 days ago (March 26th, 2006)

Great song
Very cool tune. You have a lots of production warmth in this track.
Guitar and voice play off each other so well. You have an early Niel
Young, but a sweeter tone. I like the guitar playing very tasty and
relaxed. Voice, very in control.
Sometimes I think your long vocal phrasing and vibrato (tasty) gets
over played. But no sooner than I type that ,the:
'I'm somewhere near to gone' part plays, whoa...that's perfecto!!!!
I think you could mix it up sometime and sing more words,
synchopated delivery, in spots. So when the
'I'm somewhere near to gone' part plays it contrasts and is more
special sounding.
Very very cool, very pretty very nice. Lots of cool stuff going on Mister.

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	prc123 said 1322 days ago (April 13th, 2006)
	neil youngish This one caught my attention because of the oh so Neil Youngish guitar. I really like the lazy mood this song puts me in. Well done. prc

Eccentrikamerika	Eccentrikamerika said 1317 days ago (April 18th, 2006)
	beaauuuuuuuh i can't believe i'm just hearing this on ksvy. this is beautiful. i think you use the timbre of your voice perfectly here. lyrically, i think this is absolutely perfect- and everything else falls into place as well. wicked, derwood. Check out my latest song called Car Go Fast

Eccentrikamerika	Eccentrikamerika said 1317 days ago (April 18th, 2006)
	beaauuuuuuuh i can't believe i'm just hearing this on ksvy. this is beautiful. i think you use the timbre of your voice perfectly here. lyrically, i think this is absolutely perfect- and everything else falls into place as well. wicked, derwood. Check out my latest song called Car Go Fast

Tadashi Togawa	Tadashi Togawa said 1315 days ago (April 20th, 2006)
	It is a cold night. Your singing voice is sad why. It beautifully reaches the soul. Check out my latest song called Mexican taste

apb

apb said 1283 days ago (May 22nd, 2006)

The combination of ...
Lo-Fi and your vocals gives me a sense of Belle and Sebastian ..
(if you've never heard of them, try "The State I'm In".

Very good emotional song all the same, nicely done.

..and PS. thanks for the help with getting iChat working - I lost my DSL
connection abruptly .. happens from time to time .. and I wasn't sure
of quickest way to get up and running again - it didn't work after the
connection came back .. (probably changed IP) so I unlike MJ chat ..I
had to restart ichat .. and you were gone .. I told Caroline.

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Rolo	Rolo said 1274 days ago (May 31st, 2006)
	Beautiful Beautiful song. And the performance got that special "live" feeling. I don't know how you recorded this, but i really feel you recorded it single-shot, guitar and vocals at the same time. And i like it that way because remains pure. If I'm wrong... you fooled me well, but i enjoyed being fooled. Check out my latest song called Sempiterna Decepción

wolf175	wolf175 said 1259 days ago (June 15th, 2006)
	Sexy-na koe That means in Japanese: Sexy voice. Definitely gayish. I loved it. Wolferina

J.A.Stewart	J.A.Stewart said 1243 days ago (July 1st, 2006)
	Definitely... Has a Neil Young feel to it. Fleshed out a bit --- lyrically and instrumentally --- this could be a a very nice piece of work. It's pretty nice in its raw form, as it is. ;-) Keep up the good work, Darren. --- Joe Check out my latest song called A Night @ Neverland

EZamor	EZamor said 1224 days ago (July 20th, 2006)
	My fave so far Glad I came across this one. Ya know, I would ever have checked this out if I were just searching by genre. It's very nice and melodic, with a great vocal line. I wouldn't want to change it myself, but I can't help but wonder how this would sound with a touch of radiohead-esque electronics... Check out my latest song called Peace (One Drop in the Blue) (w/ LunaTrick)

urbnite

urbnite said 1223 days ago (July 22nd, 2006)

My fave so far
hey EZ...

welcome, again. glad andrew sent you this way.

thanks for the kind words... now that you mention it, i can't help but wonder
what this would sound like with a touch of radiohead-esque electronics, either...
love me some radiohead. think you've got some nigel godrich in you? :)

- d

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<a href="http://www.macjams.com/song/19187">I'm Not Here</a>

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Willywagga	Willywagga said 1145 days ago (October 7th, 2006)
	Georgous song I love every bit of it just perfect. I see pixelated scenes, strangers walk by as I pass in my warm car. Not hearing anything. This could slot into a movie so easy so easy. perfect !! Check out my latest song called The Jes on Sea Road

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