I Just Don't Have

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urbnite

Genre: Rock

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this song was inspired by a terrible day and my wonderful new fender champion 600.

i say fuck and i talk about not being able to get it up. guard the young years.

wrote it yesterday, recorded today. leave me alone.

wanna lay down some drums?

i started a forum about a possible collab... any interest?

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Lyrics

i wanna love but i just can't grow
i wanna leave you and darling it shows
i want a place i can call my own
somewhere where nobody's home

sometimes i can't sleep at night
can't fight the feeling that nothing's right
but i get up every day
and try to find another way

i want a life i just don't have
i want a life i just don't have

i hate my body and i hate my friends
i just hope that someday this ends
i have a feeling somebody knows
but it's something nobody shows

i need a job to pay my bills
but that won't cure my ills
i still think about you everyday
but we're out of things to say

i want a life i just don't have
i want a life i just don't have

i want to fuck but just for fun
can't get it up not for anyone
wanna get close to you
but let me guard down is something i can't do

can't let you in cause i wanna get out
i wanna run away and shout
go on a killing spree
maybe then i'll finally feel free

i want a life i just don't have
i want a life i just don't have
i want a life i just don't have

i don't care anymore
i'm so over it
i don't care anymore
i couldn't give a shit
if i tried
and i tried

Song Stats

Hits: 2152
Comments: 35
Fans: 12
Plays: 103
Downloads: 94
Votes: 5
Uploaded: Jan 26, 2008 - 12:46:24 AM
Last Updated: Jan 26, 2008 - 05:11:06 PM Last Played: Apr 15, 2013 - 04:43:58 PM

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Song Actions

Hardware:

zoom handy h4 thing
fender champion 600 lover
epiphone les paul upgrades all over
seagull artist mosaic beautiful acoustic lovely

hands
voice
pen
paper

powerbook g4 falling apart

Software:

GB 4.x

Comments

Alannah

Alannah said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)

WOW ....
Love your lyrics ..... as I said in the chat ... thank God that musicians can get this stuff we feel out there in lyrics cause most of the world feels it .. they just can't seem to say it .... (well not without losing our jobs or friends anyway) ... luvvin the whole ED verse ... (but that is a story itself there ....) musically my fav part was towards the end when you added the FX to the last verse ... sounded good ....

Check out my latest song called Street People (Anomalous w/Alannah)

urbnite	urbnite said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	reply hey alannah - thanks! nice running into you in chat, too. yeah - i felt kinda funny about the words because i don't normally write like this. i don't write songs about fucking. maybe i should. ha. :) (i like the end the best, too.) Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

Feter	Feter said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	I Just Don't Have WOW a great song bed for a cool band waiting wish some MJers help to let this go more higher but its stand on its own loved your singing just so cool ..the guitar sound realy grooovey ..thnx for sharin !!! (who s calling ..or was it my paranoia ??) HA ~~ Check out my latest song called Roll with it

urbnite	urbnite said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	why don't we have? hey feter! thanks a bunch. sorry i missed ya in chat last night. this is my first recording that's actually ready for collab. it's good to go at 95 bpm. i may have a few weird extra couple beats in the guitar parts here and there, but... Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

caroline	caroline said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	i woke up... to this!! you are amazing - i think this might be the best thing you have ever done - may the muse always be with you xoxoxo Check out my latest song called i'm a reunion maid MJRF 2010

urbnite	urbnite said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	oh you thanks...maybe you are my muse. why aren't you with me?! Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

	said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	I find myself sometimes wanting a life I dont have nice tune would like to here the finish!

urbnite	urbnite said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	don't we all thanks for listening ego... dig it. Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

drakonis

drakonis said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)

Wow, good work here!
Excellent tune, catchy, really well played and sung, and good lyrics too... I guess things have to get bumpy for us to get really inspired, sometimes. Recording and levels seem quite good. It could possibly have dabs of other instruments, but for the most part, this feels good in its raw guitar-only form here. I would work on tightening up the lyrics in a couple of places where they feel a little cramped, but other than that, this is really good songwriting, Darren! I like the depressing lyrics against an upbeat song, it works.
ttfn,
Drakonis

Check out my latest song called Belle Aire (for Mandolin Orchestra)

urbnite	urbnite said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	:) still thinking about what else to do with this, but i agree i'd like some more instruments going on. may play around with more guitar. or drums if anyone takes that challenge. anyway - thanks for the comments as always! Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

	said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	many parts to make a whole here; you keep great time! :) I love the drops to mellow and sparse guitar, then fill back to full throttle - cool undulation. You also have quite an impressive vocal capacity that would make many envious - wow. Nice . - Harold

urbnite	urbnite said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	parts. hey harold - thanks for the comment. it may be less parts than you think! i want more. ha. Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

	said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	parts well, I guess I meant the segments of the song progression, not the elements of instrumentation, etc.; I do a terrible job of explaining what I mean - I'm kind of lame in that area...

MJG	MJG said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	I think you.... maybe need too just get some lovin:) Enjoyable guitar, and groovy little number, I also agree w/Alannah, the FX's on the last verse(vocals)really shows were you can take this tune too. Perhaps a lead guitar or organ, also plays nicely on it's own, good song. Check out my latest song called Shadow of the Moon II (Studio)

urbnite	urbnite said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	i just need an organ hey there - thanks for comments & suggestions. i also like the end. i do want to do more with this... might take a bit of time, though. :) - d Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

apb

apb said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)

Agree ..

.. with Caroline .. this is one of the best I've heard from you and it is often in the doldrums you find the best inspiration .. how's that for one of lifes twists?

Liked the kinda Joni Mitchell strum/rhythm to the guitars.. and I've missed that clean, crisp sound a Fender Champion has .. I got one too .. but a baby 110 model.

Nice use of 'pen' too ;o) .. I find myself on worn out red felt tips these days :o)

Check out my latest song called Anyway

urbnite	urbnite said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	a penny for your thoughts hey thanks apb... this is a new version of a little 5W amp from the 50s or something. all tubes, but a baby. i love it, though. perfect for recording in my little room it would seem! i like the fine point pilot rollerballs, myself. i've got a ton if you're ever in need... :) - d Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

craft	craft said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	yes great guitar sounding.. NIce lyrics and a great singing... You got to finish it!! Get a bass, some piano (organ or synth) and some drums and rock it out!!! Check out my latest song called Valarty & AJ Craft - Burn (Alternative version)

urbnite	urbnite said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	= hey thanks craft! i may need help doing all that. no keyboard and clueless about drums... :( Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

jiguma	jiguma said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	One of your best yet darren .. .. and you've used a click track!! ;) D/L - will have a listen/think about some tracks. Seagull Artist eh .. Niiiice! Good to have you back at MJ. Neil Check out my latest song called News Is Gonna Break

urbnite	urbnite said 1938 days ago (January 27th, 2008)
	click click Neil... Thanks! Yeah - I finally bit the bullet and used clicks. I think it worked. And yes, I do love my Seagull. :) - d Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

ajnorth	ajnorth said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	cool song. To be honest I really like it the way it is. Sounds like it should be the last track on a CD. Would be interested to hear with other instruments, but I like some songs stripped to just guitar and vocals. Adam Check out my latest song called Greed

davisamerica	davisamerica said 1939 days ago (January 26th, 2008)
	right then talking heads.... hmmm... just thinking... right then.. cool Check out my latest song called 12

urbnite	urbnite said 1938 days ago (January 27th, 2008)
	my head talks. i love the talking heads. Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

urbnite	urbnite said 1938 days ago (January 27th, 2008)
	:) hey adam = thanks... yeah, i know what you mean. most of my songs are usually guitar and vocals, though. we'll see i suppose - d Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

echoroom	echoroom said 1938 days ago (January 27th, 2008)
	Nice track Great track, and really great vox. I 've got a massive backlog of stuff, otherwise I'd play about with this... i may see how things are in a couple of months. steve Check out my latest song called Otnemem/Heal

Moviz	Moviz said 1938 days ago (January 27th, 2008)
	great lyrics and excellent singing. It's the kind of song that wouldn't sound any better with the backings you mention.... just 'different'. I think it stands as it is though, regards M Check out my latest song called Monet's Garden (new)

	said 1938 days ago (January 27th, 2008)
	Nice tune! I had listened to this yesterday and thought I'd clicked that little "Favorites" button as I was downloading this. Anyway, I had to stop back to let you know I really dig this track! I don't have a whole lot of free time, but I will see if I can throw some drums to this. (Although, you probably have someone doing that by now, I'd guess) Thanks for sharing this cool tune!

SmokeyVW	SmokeyVW said 1895 days ago (March 10th, 2008)
	r u David Byrne in disguise? i could hear this becoming a Talking Heads tune. your lyrics and delivery are definitely going that way... now add that characteristic bass, and a little synth spice, and something for drums... and you got it! thanks! Check out my latest song called RUOK

floppysurprise	floppysurprise said 1859 days ago (April 15th, 2008)
	deffinitaly sounds like you have allot of influence from the talking heads, like allot of the comments you've allready got. i think it sounds cool like this without other instruments. it would sound cool with a drum beat maybe at the end and having an instrumental part added to it. i dunno Check out my latest song called All Sorts Of Nonsense

magnatone	magnatone said 1859 days ago (April 15th, 2008)
	I Just Don't Have great lyrics, great vocals, great guitar. Um - great tune! Check out my latest song called Blind Love (Seeing Heart) - Orchestral Version

	said 1859 days ago (April 15th, 2008)
	Excellent. I simply love your singing and I agree with allanah's comments and I too love the end verse best with the FX but it was all good. I bet you felt better afterwards, Not sure I like the look of the knife behind your back though:) I have been stabbed in the back so many timesnot litterally suppose it doesn't really matter anymore either. Thank you soo much for sharing. Peace Dee.

that80sboy	that80sboy said 1859 days ago (April 15th, 2008)
	hey! reminds me of a guitar player i used to play with...cool sound here! Check out my latest song called the battle goes on

PaulaMunk	PaulaMunk said 552 days ago (November 13th, 2011)
	I can relate. Most of us don't get what we want and it is so hard to want what we have. I hope you found a drummer. Some great guitar here. Love the last bit. Thanks. Check out my latest song called Alone at Christmas

urbnite	urbnite said 552 days ago (November 13th, 2011)
	_ i think the last bit is my favorite part, too. thanks. :) Check out my latest song called Fall With Me

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Name: Darren
Location: San Francisco CA USA

i'm just a guy stumbling through life. that stumbling (and some early dragging by my parents) took me all over the world, but i seem to have settled in san francisco for a while at least. i've been on macjams for quite a while now - not sure where... [see more]

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