All of the Answers

Well, I was thinking about uploading this song anyway, but we learned of the loss of a grandparent this morning so it became more appropriate. A lot of my songs are infected by my own sort of random wondering and/or venting about loss, death etc. The reason is simply because I lost a few. My real dad, my step dad after that, my sister, a best friend, and then the more common grandparents, etc. More than usual and many of them while I was still quite young. I have learned, for better or for worse to kind of steel myself to the effects of the loss, but in some ways I still feel a kind of an inexplicable "hole" effect about the whole thing, as if there is a vortex pulling bits and pieces from my life and I can't see through the thing at all. I mean really, that's true isn't it. The enigma is probably the worst part, or maybe the best/easiest part. It's really hard to know. Songs I have done may paint loss in different lights, but really a lot of them are about this. I definitely do NOT have all the answers, but I do have... Life, Love, Experience. These are things I try to hang on to as long as I can.

This song is the intro track to Between the Lines. It is a combination of Punk, Blues, Folk, etc. I don't know what genre to call it and I hardly care. As always I am kind of saddened that so many other people do. Does it really matter? There is really only one question... what does it do for you? Anything? If not then it sucks. If yes, then ok then, --that's what it is. Exactly. Nothing more, nothing less.

In passing I'd like to point out that the lyric at the end about the leaves falling... for me at least that is fascinating. Because, although those leaves fall and die, and as they pass, yes, life was too hard for them. But the really amazing part... spring comes again. Life begins anew. That is something that a person who loses can't always see, but if they hang on long enough, they learn the truth. Life goes on. Cycles of life, cycles of loss. I guess I am hinting at that in some way.

--thanks

Oh PS I want to add, I'm not looking for sympathy posts. Please refrain, although in some way there would be an appreciation. I wrote this song over 6 years ago. Wow time flies. Seems not that long ago. I was planning to post it today either way. Things just turned out to be different than I expected. But we live in the moment, and today is what today is. I can't change today or the thoughts of today any more than you can. In the spirit of being genuine, I have no choice but to speak in the present, and I hope you live in the present also, real. So just take it at face value and I hope there is enough "realness" in it that there is an impact. That's all I ever wanted. Anyway, thanks again and good day.

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i've seen rivers running
but i don't know where they go
i've seen flowers blooming
but i don't know why they grow

i'm waiting here for all of the answers
can you tell me how it ends
i want to know why the moments fly away
all the way to the end

the sun goes down in a red sky
and the night is filled with stars
can you tell me where i'm going,
i've lost my way in the dark
the leaves on the trees are falling,
i guess this life was too hard

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