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Why Can't I?



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Rebecca Willimans a talented friend of mine wrote the following about this piece. I think it well captures the mood.

Why Can't I?
She sat on the edge of her bed, as the evening chill made her shoulders tense and her breaths come in short hard gasps. Her face was wet from the tears cried for some time now. Her hands clenched the bed covers on either side of her as she tried desperately to figure out what to do. In her mind were the bitter thoughts of a young lady who's father didn't see things her way. She wondered why it seemed he never would let her be with her friends. It made no sense to her. She thought it should be so simple for her father to see. Yet, here she sat, again, forbidden to leave the house.

"Why can't I", she almost screamed in her mind. And suddenly the answer formed. She would show him, she would leave and never return. She would run-away. Yes, that would make him see the mistake of his stupid rules.

Gathering her most prized possessions, she packed a small bag and waited. When she was sure everyone in the house was sleeping soundly, she opened the window of her room. The cool air of the night flushed her determined face. She knew it was now or never. Nothing else would work.

Almost to the street, she turned to look at the dark house. Feeling some fear of the unknown, the thought of going back did flash amongst her racing thoughts. No, she had made a choice to leave and that she would do. She had learned her stubborn ways well from her father. It was all his fault. She was sure. At least, she was sure tonight, as she walked towards her best friend's house.
-Rebecca Williams
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Uploaded: Feb 04, 2007 - 03:43:03 PM
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peacepiano said 4573 days ago (February 9th, 2007)
Well Done!
Beautiful tension. The piano seems light and sweet but there is a powerful anger brewing. And the strings and percussion are well placed to complement the piano. Well Done! Thanks for sharing this.

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Bowman said 4572 days ago (February 10th, 2007)
Thanks peacepiano
I agree with and like your description of beautiful tension, those are my feelings about this piece as well. Thanks for checking this out and for your kind and insightful comments.
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Enrique Gil said 4568 days ago (February 15th, 2007)
Very cool!
Being the keyboard type, I really enjoyed the bright piano melody. Your played it with emotion. The background strings provide the framework that makes the piano resonate even better. I really liked it and downloaded it.
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Bowman said 4567 days ago (February 15th, 2007)
Thank you Enrique,
I'm happy you enjoyed this piece. Your comments especially about the playing mean a great deal to me coming from such an accomplished pianist.
Although I've had a few lessons as a child I'm not a trained pianist - still I do love the keyboard and input all my music from it and believe in the great expressiveness that comes from playing live.
Take care Enrique,

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Feter said 4568 days ago (February 15th, 2007)
awesome !
this is a real wonderfull realm
of true art .. I never enjoyed
a piece for along time like this
the piano is singin ..while the bass
line ( a cello?) paintin step dancin
with scenes come on and on ..what Rebbea
wrote ..a real charmin to explain all this
wonderfull job charlie ..thank you for sharin
such true art !!
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Bowman said 4567 days ago (February 15th, 2007)
You're very kind…
It's great to have you back as an active member again Feter.
Sometimes I send out a work to the world and I'm not always sure what others will think of it.
You're not only talented but are always so positive and encouraging Feter.
I thank you for that.
Take Care my friend,

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vbluesky said 4513 days ago (April 11th, 2007)
cool song
reminds me of Last Tango in Paris, I like the style you play on piano, this song has a minimal-modern-beethoven feel, with room for an orchestra? the percussions towards the end are just right, nice jam Charlie
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Bowman said 4506 days ago (April 17th, 2007)
Thanks Vincent,
Pretty fine company there. That I even in some small way evoked them to you makes my day.
Happy to hear from you again Vincent.
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guitapick said 4505 days ago (April 18th, 2007)
...for providing a wonderful piece of music. Lots of images. Great flow...
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Bowman said 4505 days ago (April 18th, 2007)
Thanks for listening...
and the kind words guitapick.
Flow is a part of all fine music. I'm glad you found some in this.
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composerclark said 4484 days ago (May 10th, 2007)
Hi Charlies,
Very nice, as usual! You once again do what you do best, which is create a mood, paint a picture, through music.

I feel a "late night", urban mood here. I can picture someone driving around at night downtown looking for something/someone, in kind of a seedy, run-down neighborhood with lots of neon lights, most of which are burned out.

My musical suggestion is the same as always, I'm afraid! It feels great to me, but like it's not quite finished... I really like the way it starts--I like the sparseness of it al--but it seems to me that the orchestration could change somewhat when you modulate (i.e., go from the key that you use at the beginning to the next one, about 1/3 of the way through the piece)... perhaps other colours could be brought in, also in sustained notes, creating a darker mood. Maybe. The fact is that I never really know what I'm doing when I compose -- I just keep trying things until I find something I like, so possibly my suggestion won't work at all!

My other two suggestions/comments are that I think it could be even more sparse at the beginning--I think the piano could start out with just a few notes here and there, and gradually evolve into the more active role you have for it; and the ending could similarly be drawn-out more.

I think you have wonderful musical intuition.
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Bowman said 4482 days ago (May 11th, 2007)
I often feel so fortunate...
...to actually produce something that actually works that I'm often reluctant to tamper with "success". But what I sometimes call success is often only a beginning. That's likely the case here. I will try your suggestions and see how they sound. They may not make it a better piece but they will help me become a better composer.
Thanks for you insightful thoughts Clark,
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