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Hard to Say



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If any of you are actually following me, you know I'm attempting to post some of my back catalog, to get some feedback on what WAS, and to share were I am at and how I got here, with the hope of arousing some interest in future collaboration or other coop of some kind. I'm up to album #3 out of 4. Between the Lines. This one was created just after the turn of the century. Hard to Say is my favorite track in this set, probably mostly because of what it represents. Musically, I think it's a continued expression of the Polly PUt the Kettle On style that has been evolving for some time, but it is strong move out of the sometimes angry and frustrated emotional expression and into a more hopeful vein. During the creation of BTL I was kind of letting go of some "bad stuff" and looking forward to the future and being hopeful about it, letting the negative entrapment go and trying to experiment with being ALIVE again. BTL is a mixture of looking back on the pain and looking forward on the hope of the future. I could go into great detail about how my childhood affected me and how things went rather badly for a few years, but I won't do that. I'll instead say that there were a few deaths along the way and a few big disappointments in some other areas. All of that crap fueled some of my earlier works to a degree, which is fine by me and everything, but btl was special in that it was an expression of a departure from those chains. Anyone who has grown up and had any level of hardship probably can corroborate with me that it doesn't just go away, but as life goes on some pain dims and some other joys can come to life and things can get better. I find this song expresses that moment of freedom when you realize that it's "ok" pretty well. That's what it means to me. What does it mean to you? I hope there's something to say, even if it's hard :). Ok, forgive me. I'm human too you know. Thanks for stopping by.
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could you let me into your mind
so i can see what you hide away
could you tell me the time
before it slides away?

waiting for the perfect time
to open up the doors and fly away
take me into your arms tonight
could you help me to understand
'cause i have open arms and an open mind
could you teach me to fly my little angel,
to heaven we'll fly away

hidden in your timid smile
braided into your sweetest lies
caught within the starlight in your eyes

i feel like i have everything
and everything i have i could give away
i wish i could explain the way i feel tonight
but the words are hard to say

is it on the tip of my tongue
is there something i'm dying to say
am i afraid of what you'll find
if you pull those covers away

tight lip bound with careful knots
that no-one could untie
tucked within the safety of the night

do you think you could understand
'cause i have open arms and an open mind
could i teach you to fly my little angel?
to heaven we could fly away
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Uploaded: Mar 14, 2009 - 08:11:11 PM
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Feter said 3844 days ago (March 14th, 2009)
Hard to Say
Man ..you are doin great great job here ....I just dig your guitar arrangements
and work ...top notch singing here ...yup let the music speaks outta your mind
YOU ROCK ...thnx alot for sharin !!!!
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chronologic said 3844 days ago (March 14th, 2009)
You got first slot. Good job! Feter I think I focus mostly on the instrument arrangement when I write music. I always layer on parts and the challenge I give myself is to have the next instrument do something unique, not just follow suit. I try to include different phrasings, different melodies, etc, but still make it "work". This makes my arrangements more complex, and probably sometimes less listenable, if you want the experience to be "easy". But for me I like the extra complexity, both when making music and when listening to music. Which is not to say that's all I like. Just one of the things that makes music interesting. Simple songs are also sometimes great, like for example "I thought you knew" by Nitzer Ebb. That song is SOOOOO cool but it's like one guitar that he strums like once every 10 seconds. It's all good!!! Thanks for listening :).
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MarkHolbrook said 3844 days ago (March 15th, 2009)
Holy ....!
I love this!!! I love that driving bass and the synco guitar strums... wow...

The vocals are great. I love the "alter ego" duplicate vocal in my right ear! It adds a cool effect.

Most of all I love the bass and I love the intro guitar strums! Excellent!
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chronologic said 3843 days ago (March 15th, 2009)
Holy ... batman
Cool response to get. Thanks! I think I syncopate like a sick man, at times. I'm glad you liked it here. As for the "alter ego"... Some time ago I really got into the vocal treatment on "the soft parade" by the doors. I actually spent about two hours one day trying to duplicate that sound with some of the effects I have around here, and I did get pretty close, but it was so complicated I ended up losing it. Still I never wanted to be exact I just thought it was a cool sound and I've been experimenting with things like that for awhile. The "talk-talk" vocal track is one of the things I've thrown in here and there. I'm glad you thought it came out cool on this one. Thanks!
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tokai said 3844 days ago (March 15th, 2009)
great track love your vox and voice top job. You got a lot of tunes up and coming at the moment. Is that you playing the bass? Like the arrangement with you guitar playing lead most of the way through.
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chronologic said 3843 days ago (March 15th, 2009)
I appreciate the listen. Yeah it is me playing bass, and everything actually. The bass is an old Yamaha bass, not a really nice one, and it is a combination of a line signal split to a Peavey guitar amp and then recombined (half miced half line in other words). That is how I got that sound...something that was a real struggle. The guitar amp provided some ambiance and some high-end clarity, while the line signal provided the bass and the drive. I didn't have a real bass amp, which is why I had to be creative. On a similar note...the drum set is the most interesting thing on this recording (most of the album) actually it's a hybrid set, one half of it is a Yamaha set that I finally ended up getting, a decent set. There were two or three mics placed around this set. The other half is home-made acoustic triggers connected to an Alesis DM5 drum brain, all played with real sticks at one time, and the mics and DM5 were routed through a single mixer and mixed to produce a single stereo mix. That is why the kick drum has such punch. It's a sampled kick from the DM5, but triggered via my foot. The toms and one of the crashes are also from the DM5. I ended up doing this because when I did all the writing I was using the DM5 exclusively in an apartment, I couldn't have a real set. When I did get the real set again I set up a hybrid kit. I had an acoustic snare, hi-hat, ride, and 3 toms, and a sampled Kick, 3 more toms, and a crash. I think maybe also a china that was sampled. It was a cool experiment. Thanks for coming by.
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sheilad said 3843 days ago (March 15th, 2009)
been there
done that, lived the life... and happy to say life does get better and better with time. Great way to use your talents to get it out. D/L
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chronologic said 3842 days ago (March 16th, 2009)
I'm sorry to hear you know what I'm talking about! But I hope you enjoy the song. I was really piqued on that idea of being so content that you suddenly realize you can give away anything/everything and it won't hurt a bit! In my life that kind of feeling of freedom isn't a daily thing, but I have tasted it I can say that. I hope this bit of song shares that moment with you and you can at least smell it!!
Check out my latest song called Walk with You
Nick_Flash said 3841 days ago (March 18th, 2009)
Your voice sounds great on this. I love to hear all live instruments - I wish I still had a drum set. I only have a small room right now - nothing compared to what you posted on the studio forum. Cool song, sound like I need to check out more.

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chronologic said 3841 days ago (March 18th, 2009)
Yeah, I had a feeling you would be up to that. You're a very capable musician, a pro if you will. I hope you will stop in a check out a few more of my posts as time goes on. I know I'll be checking out yours. Thanks.
Check out my latest song called Walk with You
lengold said 3838 days ago (March 21st, 2009)
You have managed
to create a complete and altogether believable 'band' sound here. It really feels like there are about five members playing. Great song and vocal too. Very pro sounding and enjoyable to listen to.

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chronologic said 3836 days ago (March 23rd, 2009)
Thanks bro. It's my hope that by the time I'm done my sound will have fully matured into the real deal. I stopped by your personal page (not MJ) the other day, looks really nice. Cool pictures and vibe.
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